I'm a little bit retarded in general

But so many people don't believe me, which is a shame, because I think I'd know. I've got ADD, the inattentive sub-type which is part of the problem. It's also become adult ADD which is the other problem. First of all, because I'm inattentive as opposed to hyperactive it's not blindingly obvious, unlike the kids that run around like mad the whole time talking and making a fuss. I just can't focus on things properly and I fiddle with shit all the time. Second of all, since I've had it for so long without treatment I now have adult ADD and I've developed coping mechanisms so that it's even less obvious to other people. My doctors reckon I've got it, but most of my friends discount it as a something I'm faking and exploiting to get an easy ride, which is quite arrogant really, and a kinda hurtful. I was diagnosed in year nine when mum took me to a psych because I was cutting mysel and I'd burnt myself with a cigarette. At first i didn't believe him, I thought I was just being me and my dad definitely didn't believe him, which has turned out to be a problem. My dad reckons that ADD is just made up to give a diagnosis to naughty kids who just need a good smack. When I was naughty I did get a good smack, which is why I'm a generally well behaved person. As such my disorder doesn't pose a problem to other people, just me. It's the reason I've felt like a useless turd since I was like 12 years old. IT's the reason I've got a problem with pot. It's the reason I fuck up my school work. It's the reason I'm always forgetting shit and losing shit and it's the reason it seems like I'm not listening when my dad talks to me. And then he yells at me for not paying attention, and because he don't believe in ADD he thinks I am just useless and forgetful and lazy, which makes me feel useless and stupid and lazy. I'm not a doctor so I can't accurately describe it;. If you're interested just look at ADHD in wiki. then checkout Adult ADHD in wiki.

Anyways, class is over now, I'm a go somewhere.

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